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About Me Official Beta Tester Wannabe Novelist Philippa Gissing21/Female/Australia Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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  • Current Residence: Sydney, Australia
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: 14 (Aus)
  • Interests: Reading, writing and drawing; music, Pokémon
  • Favourite movie: Pokémon Lucario and the Mystery of Mew... for now.
  • Favourite band or musician: Coldplay
  • Favourite genre of music: Is it too clichéd to say everything and anything?
  • Favourite artist: Hibbary, Kimbo-demonica, all the realistic Pokémon artists, etc
  • Favourite poet or writer: Too many people! Oh, and me. (lol)
  • Favourite photographer: Roseanne (my Mum)
  • Favourite style of art: Cartoonish realism (if that makes sense at all)
  • Operating System: Windows XP and MacOSX
  • MP3 player of choice: White Classic iPod 30GB
  • Shell of choice: Shellder *pokes out tongue*
  • Wallpaper of choice: Anything that still enables you to see the desktop icons...
  • Skin of choice: My own, thank you very much.
  • Favourite game: Pokémon, Starcraft, etc
  • Favourite gaming platform: Nintendo DS Lite
  • Favourite cartoon character: Erm, I have hundreds. Pokémon fan, remember?
  • Personal Quote: "Take me as I am."
  • Tools of the Trade: Tablet + Mac + Photoshop Elements 4.0
http://www.pokemonminami.com

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Fragments of thought

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 11, 2009, 5:05 AM
It bees true that I'm too sensitive. It bees true that I'm a bit of a frivolous idiot. But does it bees true that I should feel guilty for not only these things but more? That I should feel guilty for being who I am?

I say no, but can't help it.

All I ever do is disappoint people. I realised this afternoon that if I'm made aware of disappointing people I couldn't give a stuff about, or if they have a low opinion of me for any reason, I don't care.

But if I feel or hear about how my actions have done the same to people I do care about it so much. I feel very insecure when people I love judge me negatively. (On that note, I also hate false positivity and lies just to blanket stuff)

I feel very attacked at times. I feel attacked when people attack those I care about. Moreso when I can't speak a word in my defense, knowing my argument/justification wouldn't stand up if it's verbalised.

It's almost as if I'm subconsciously inviting my mind to come up with the stupidest antisocial behaviour. "You can't change what you don't acknowledge." I acknowledge plenty, why can't I shake the habits?

It's when I don't know how to act that is the worst. Keep a distance, stop being so clingy? Possibly misconstrued as my own feelings? Who knows what to do with men. Would they rather appreciate physical hugs or the space to deal by their own?

Arguments with myself always lead up with me taking the roundabout and circling forever. Back to the same old questions, justifications, whinges.

I don't understand him, but maybe this is made worse by the fact I wouldn't even understand her if there was one. Is it males, or people? What am I going to do now my inner 6th grader is terrified of emotional and physical rejection so much so she's going to cut herself loose before it can even happen? Oedipus Rex, eat my heart out.

Pixen out, 12:05 AM, Thursday Nov 12



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  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Jon Hopkins
  • Reading: The Gathering Storm
  • Watching: Spicks and Specks, Hungry Beast, etc
  • Playing: Solitaire
  • Eating: Dinner
  • Drinking: White wine
Skin by `ginkgografix (modified by =pipthekitsune)

Comments


:iconmetros2soul:
thanks for the watch! (if i didn't thank you already ^^;)

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Faq#213: How can I earn more pageviews?
:iconpipthekitsune:
No worries, I love your Mewtwo art! :D

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:iconmetros2soul:
aw thanks :] :hug:

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I see now that the circumstances of one's birth are irrelevant... it is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are...

Faq#213: How can I earn more pageviews?
:icontalonzi:
(Almost a month late x[)

Thanks for the watch! :D I shall have to really look through your gallery sometime :)

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"Be true to your work, your word, and your friend"-Henry David Thoreau

"Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement."- Foster C. McClellan
:iconpipthekitsune:
Hehe no worries, and thanks!

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:iconsuicune4890:
thx for the fav!

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:iconnarutokibamaru-l:
Hello:D I havent seen u around latly, how have you been:D When u gonna put some more art on?

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an eye for an eye my friend.

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I'm a ninja and I'm proud of it! :ninjastar: :nirvana:
:cake: rules! :chew:
me :bonk: Turok
Shadow clone jutsu! :yakuza:
I made my icon!
Ed or Wrath?
Why not both?
:iconpipthekitsune:
Yeah I've been soooo dead -_- not doing much upload-worthy stuff... ahehehehe...

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:iconnarutokibamaru-l:
lol I know what u mean, thats ok:D I do that alot as well

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an eye for an eye my friend.

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I'm a ninja and I'm proud of it! :ninjastar: :nirvana:
:cake: rules! :chew:
me :bonk: Turok
Shadow clone jutsu! :yakuza:
I made my icon!
Ed or Wrath?
Why not both?
:iconteru-terumomiji:
I just remembered! Happy Birthday!!

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Knowledge speaks, Wisdom listens.

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